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I have a bunch of ideas about making a community in honor of Dreamwidth's first anniversary, the purpose of which would be to manage a festival to generate content for our home, and thereby tempt more people to come on over and join the fun.

The problem is that I have such a small circle here that I don't know how to publicize it. If I can't get a few people with wider circles to publicize it for me, I might as well not bother, because it will never get off the ground. Anybody have any suggestions?

Icky Slash

Feb. 11th, 2010 10:20 am
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I keep seeing posts where people complain about, or outright sneer at, slash that falls into heteronormative tropes, where one of the guys is feminized and treated exactly like we object to women being treated. it bothers me when people act superior about stuff like that )
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I finally had time to watch the last episode. Spoilers )
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I seem to be out of sync with my flist lately.


Spoilers for 5.11 and 5.12 )
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I'd heard this thing about Spoons before I got sick-I have an autoimmune disorder- but I'd forgotten about it, so it was interesting to revisit it.

I've never actually thought about it in terms of emotional spoons. Possible TMI about my issues )
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My Yuletide story is called "The Furred Boots" and can be found here for what it's worth.

The thing is, I never liked the princess type of traditional fairy tale. I hated them as a child, though I enjoyed animal fables and magical tales in general. It was just the whole princess thing that made me uncomfortable. My favorite character in Rapunzel was the witch. She was powerful! So when I saw the prompt, which read in part:

Can "happily ever after" really work out? What happens if it doesn't? What happens when the young princess suddenly finds herself in a foreign country, bound to a man she barely knows?

I really liked it. So I kind of made Cinderella an adulterer. Sorry about that, but she needed to pursue her own life! It's not that I hated the prince or anything, it's just that his idea of Cinderella was oppressive and stifling and unbearable.

I only have one more episode of Miracles to watch, and I'm just now getting attached to the characters. I don't want it to end. Anyway, I saw some Miracle fic on the archive which I hope I can find some time to read when I've finished watching.

My plans and goals for the new year are not achievable unless I give up sleeping or something. I don't know what to do about that. I think I may let go of writing when I finish this Supernatural story I'm writing to satisfy the minimum requirements of cliche bingo. I've tried to limit the number of things I'm trying to do, but there are only so many things I'm willing to give up.

Nice day

Dec. 7th, 2009 01:28 pm
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Thank you to friendly people for the snowflake cookies!! I often feel invisible and left out of social situations -totally my issue and not due to anything anyone is or isn't doing- so I appreciate the gesture probably all out of proportion to the effort involved.
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I'm so excited about my Yuletide assignment. It's something I would never have chosen to write on my own, but I have this idea I'm completely in love with, and I have pretty much the whole plot mapped out in my head already. It's sooooooo cool. I only wish I had the technical skill to write this story they way it deserves to be written. Why is it that I have such strong ideas about what constitutes good writing, and I can look at my own writing and see tons of stuff wrong with it, but I can't seem to fix it?

I guess it's like when I draw something. I can see that it sucks, and how it sucks, but that doesn't mean I know how to make it better.

Oh well, I'll do the best I can. This is going to be loads of fun, anyway. I'm so glad I signed up!

On another note, I'm suddenly in possession of a C++ compiler, several fat books on C++ and windows programming, and a promise of lots more hours of work if I can learn this stuff. Hard choices about what I realistically have time to do are looming and I don't want to give anything up.
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We have been told by the Yuletide mother not to be jumping up and down on the website lest in our excitement we break it.

Also, she will TELL us when it is time to sign up so there is no reason to be asking: Is it ready yet? Is it ready yet? Is it ready yet? Is it ready yet?

I am going to bed now because I figure the sooner I get to sleep, the quicker Santa Yuletide will arrive.
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IMMSA, and I don't know where to go with the anger. This is so well written, and detailed, but I don't see it convincing any of the people who need convincing.

The link isn't triggery in the sense of giving any graphic details about sexual assault, but it is about rape and I found it very distressing to read.

Rape culture, how very pervasive you are.
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I just locked myself in my room because my house is full of company and their children, who are all fussing and crying. If I pick up one more baby today I think I may need back surgery.

We're getting geared up for trick or treating, but I have to REST a little or I will never make it through the rest of the day.

Now to more important things, specifically Numb3rs and Whip It totally spoiler free )
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Every year around this time the Yuletide madness starts, and every year I sit and watch in amazement, because I do not get it. It's not that I dislike Yuletide, or that I want it to go away or anything. I just do not understand it.

So my daughter is far away at school, which means we talk constantly on gtalk, and I mentioned in passing to her that lj is being taken over by Yuletide. My daughter has an lj and reads btvs and Jane Austen fanfiction, and once in a while dips into Supernatural stories, but she is not involved in the social part of fandom; I think mostly because she is in a lot of groups -feminist, QSA, and other leftist stuff- on campus, and just feels all socialed out at the end of the day.

me:I feel so left out
I don't understand yuletide and it's like a huge deal )
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I'm unspoiled, and I've been busy so I just now watched 5.03. I haven't had time to read much of people's reactions to the ep either, so prob someone has already mentioned this, but I think it would be cool

if )
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I started reading this book, Nobody Passes: Rejecting the Rules of Gender and Conformity, last week.

I'm only on the third essay, but so far it's pretty good.

more )
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I've been wanting to make a list of Supernatural vids and write out some of my thoughts on them for a long time. I had an idea of making a huge masterlist, blah blah blah, but this fandom is so prolific that I was overwhelmed by the task before I even started it. Instead, I thought I'd just put up a couple of vids and do a little mini review now and then. I hope to do a few more posts because there are so many vids I'd like to talk about, but I make no promises.

I'm not a very visual person and I know absolutely nothing about the technical side of making vids, so this is just my reaction as an unsophisticated viewer.

Both of these are Season 4 vids: one wincest, one gen )
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I have been really looking forward to the broadcast on Versus of the PBR World Cup this weekend so I turned on my TV this morning to make sure I have the DVR set to record, only to find Directv is no longer carying Versus. There doesn't seem to be anywhere else to watch it.

*weeps*
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Now that I have my adorable little 10" Lenovo laptop (henceforth to be known as Lenny Baby) I have embarked on the search for the right laptop bag for her. It has to be attractive and secure, with good padding, and just big enough for her and a book or two, because what is the point of having a mini laptop if you're going to carry it around in a big clunking bag?

I have this bag specifically the tan one third from the left, for my 15" laptop, and I like it a lot. Ideally I'd like a similar but smaller bag for Lenny Baby. I've wasted a huge amount of time looking around today without finding anything that really wows me. It has to be just the right bag for my baby.


I've seen some posts now about the fan survey discussions lowering the general squee level in fandom. I have mixed feelings when stuff like this comes up. The thing is, I came here for the m/m slash fanfiction mainly. I came to escape my life as a woman and all the baggage that entails, to find some fun and read the kind of romance between equals I can't get out in rl. But that doesn't mean I don't care about trying to make the real world more of a place I wouldn't have such an overwhelming need to escape from. I want both things from fandom, a safe place to escape to for fun and re-energizing, and a place to dissect and discuss what's happening out there in the real world that is relevant to us as "other". I can haz both, please?
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I'm always amazed at people writing on these meme things. I get ideas for prompts on those things like three weeks after everyone has finished up and moved on to something else, leaving me feeling left out of all the fun. I have to think about stories a long time before I can work them out in my mind and write them down.


So when I signed up for cliche bingo, I told myself I wasn't going to stress about it. I already had decided to concentrate on my kink_bingo card, and I decided if I wasn't immediately thrilled with my cliche bingo card I would just write one little mediocre 500 word thing and be done with it, just so I wouldn't be banned (horrors!).

Well, of course, now I feel like a criminal because I'm clearly not going to be getting bingo on this cliche card.

You know, in my utopia where women rule the world, we're going to work like pack mules for 3 weeks out of every month on making the world a beautiful, loving, satisfying, inclusive place. On the fourth week, you check into the spa/insane asylum where people who are not in their fourth week take care of you, and give you massages and listen to your complaints, and make sure your needs are met without making you ask for help.

They insist on helping you into the hot tub and bringing you a big fluffy perfumed towel when you are ready to get out. They don't hold any crazy, ridiculous rambling thing you say against you because they understand that you are temporarily insane. You can watch TOS Star Trek while weeping over your lost youth, and go on and on about how nobody likes you and you've failed at life and everything you've ever tried to do and so on, and later when you're recovered and gone back out into the world no one reminds you that you've made an ass of yourself or implies that you are unstable.

Yep, that's how it would be.